Category: existential

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Veil

I do not remember a time I was on the other side of the veil
a time before the time I would know about how we fell
The purpose we serve as the vessels of flesh
that we touch and explore, and that we never should tell

Those who whisper across the barrier crave innocent minds
never knowing who will answer, who the grooming finds
hands reaching into the membrane, groping, unknown
not caring of the aftermath and how it all unwinds

The monsters are known to us
never aliens from beyond
No demons sneaking over
or spirits to respond

The monsters will infect you
If you take the poison to heart
purge yourself, end the cycle
Don’t let the infection start

We are human, we are broken
We are used and then discarded
our scars left festering
since the wounds were imparted

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Life Time

Driving this meat machine that’s somehow twice my age
It bears the scars and fractures of a vessel for my rage.

They say a cheetah cannot change its spots
But it can say if you live or not
coming at you at the speed of hate

open mouth and shit falling out
Landing flat is what you’re about
And you’re taken when you hesitate

what I’ve seen would break a man
so I channel all the beasts I can
totems to protect my fractured mind

hearing pathetic woes
of the ones who walk on tippy toes
makes me want to slaughter to unwind

But I must be civilized
following these plans devised
to fold us into bleating herds of wool

sheared, naked, shivering
your own coat you’re delivering
while I refuse to play the fucking fool

Don’t follow me on this trip
blaze your own trail and mental slip
set the world on fire your own way

judge me and you judge yourself
your soul sold and there’s nothing left
you never want to come outside and play

This vehicle of flesh and bone is scorching down to ash
when it’s done don’t bury me, just throw me in the trash

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Shadow People

One-touch
The light comes on
The strength returns
The doubt is gone

I can run forever

One breath
The pain is gone
Doubt disappears
Nothing is wrong

I can run forever

To live
We first must die
One clean Stab
We open the eye

I can see forever

Alive
No rules apply
Fire-powered machine
And the world will fry

I will live forever

In time
My brothers arrive
Whispering to me
That the plan goes live

I have lost forever

Bleeding out
The lights turn off
Slipping to abyss
With Kalashnikov

I am the never

…

But I remember the shadow people
I remember the shadow people
I remember the shadow people
I remember the shadow people

I can live forever

They speak
Whisper to me
Another little touch
A can be

I will burn forever

Ride edges
They call to me
Planning my demise
I need to see

Into the forever

But I remember the shadow people
I remember the shadow people
I remember the shadow people
I remember the shadow people

Constant companions
Do they die when I sleep
Do they walk when awake
must maintain for their sake

I remember the shadow people
I remember the shadow people
I remember the shadow people
I remember the shadow people

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Enemy of my Enemy

The enemy of my Enemy
May not be a friend to me
May share the same enmity
That created my first enemy

To come to terms with life
Means you’ve identified your death
Means you’ve found meaning in your breath
But do not accept the sentence
Do not ever rest

You’ve identified the enemy
It will swallow you in entropy
It will sit waiting for the inevitable breakdown of sanity
But sanity is the enemy of your enemy in the light
And you have to be crazy to continue with this fight

The enemy of my Enemy
May not be a friend to me
May share the same enmity
That created my first enemy

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Hunger

Inner roiling craving nourishment
This is a reaching for osmosis
the lesser concentration reaching for the greater to join and disappear

the space, the void, craving alike
stretch to familiarity
to seek comfort in the finality that is blocked in purity of fear

the acid bath of oblivion
slaking of the thirst for desiccation
running away from the accumulation, the world’s faithful adhere

bare bone is far too much
the isolation of zero kelvin
a single hydrogen atom gaining consciousness in the nether

a silence profound
a hurricane’s eye reaching infinity
in a universe of released impossible weather

push the bubble out
create the negative space
that folds in on itself and the fracture lines feather

and break

into particles

that go unobserved as they fold into waves

breaking the event horizon of the nothing to bring me back to you