Mental health – Bass Bastard https://bassbastard.com I am the BassBastard Tue, 26 Aug 2025 04:41:17 +0000 en-US hourly 1 https://wordpress.org/?v=6.9.1 https://i0.wp.com/bassbastard.com/wp-content/uploads/2023/10/cropped-OG-BB-CLEAN.jpg?fit=32%2C32&ssl=1 Mental health – Bass Bastard https://bassbastard.com 32 32 51670482 Onyx in the sky https://bassbastard.com/2025/08/26/onyx-in-the-sky/ https://bassbastard.com/2025/08/26/onyx-in-the-sky/#respond Tue, 26 Aug 2025 04:41:15 +0000 https://bassbastard.com/?p=3884 Continue reading "Onyx in the sky"

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Onyx taking what was given
a substrate smothered, suffocated
taking and forming
building a shining soul

Newly formed and lustrous
becoming a jewel from layers thrown
a broken threshold a flash
The lights in an instant are stole

both sides to the light
to be formed in the dark
to face layers and come out glowing

Destroyed in a moment
of ongoing torment
The running waters want to go not knowing

Another star blooms in tension
when the tether is cut
rising out of the horror we’re facing

the night folds around
and holds out the beauty
so we can see one last love embracing

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I want my brain to cooperate to maintain this meat suit I have been burdened with. I have decent stretches of being functional, then hit a wall and it is like another, self-destructive, shadow me is trying to drive. Not like hearing voices. Just… the urges and needs grow ragged edges. A fog settles over concentration. A near anhedonic slow-boiling rage bubbles up like a cranial reflux burning my amygdala like a raw, weeping esophagus of my subconscious. Everything I want becomes exhausting, even when it is something I love.

And then I climb out and the lingering bits crust over and fall away, leaving itching reminders of where they were in my psyche.

But the lingering adhesions where the edges are… remind me that the attachment points are still there. That I am still wired to interface with the morass. The primeval shade of unspecified rage and bile wants to burn the edges.

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