void at my back
fire to the fore
Mother Ocean is calling
But the moon pulls once more

solid ground in her safety
to hold and protect
The fire up above in the waters reflects

The void that birthed what stands today
calls with chilling comfort
to take the pain away…

Take the pain away
Take the pain away
abdicate sensation
Give in to the numb

Take the pain away
Take the pain away
undoing creation
blind, deaf, and dumb

chasing light receding
Take the pain away
The world turns to darkness
to take the pain away

splitting atoms
dividing cells
begin again in darkness
over a sunless sea

Counter steer into the slide
fishtail fins blowing gravel wide
The moon looks on in apathy
She saw the children whose bodies flow free

crossed bones swing from the mirror
Objects aren’t fast enough to look nearer
hit the clutch and slam the steel
The faster I go, the smoother I feel

The world seems a better place when it’s a blur
The beast levels out and growls out a purr
chasing the night onto concrete
The rattle of the gravel no longer shakes the feet

Slide the gears up into 5
crank up RPMs and no overdrive
The moon hides her face behind cloudy veils
She can see tonight is the last on these wheels

I remember…
The veins of my roots coming through the dirt
I remember…
The stitches in my soul to repair the hurt
I remember…

I remember the man who has beaten me
Only blood we had was from calamity
But he was part of the stepfamily
Pain wasn’t all he was teaching me

I remember…
The veins of my roots coming through the dirt
I remember…
The stitches in my soul to repair the hurt
I remember…

She had eyes the size of the world it seems
with a heart that was broken like her dreams
caught up in a torrent when she swims the streams
pale blue eyes whose tears can’t redeem

I remember
The veins of my roots coming through the soil
I remember
The rage in the blood that would make it boil
I remember
The agony I had to share so they’d recoil
I remember

Runaway, now the details do not matter
Be the same on another plain in another time
The path of destruction has tributaries
and the agony of survival is sublime

I remember…
The veins of my roots coming through the dirt
I remember…
The stitches in my soul to repair the hurt
I remember…

The choices you made are violence; I chose survival.
Your end should not surprise you, as you precipitated its arrival
the colors blend into sound into flavors into tactile susurrations
squeezing the colors out of your melody and accepting invitations

Plastic eyes reflect the world
No shine coming from within
Trauma blasted mental state
Kills thoughts as they begin

Circling the cavitation
The waste lay in its wake
Another day, another pill
Is it a good day to break

Contaminated thoughts
Fueled by toxic dreams
The smile says tranquility
Inside the brain just screams

Needing to nurture mother
To sleep a dreamless eternity
Crawl inside the barren soil
And feed it with my entity

Look within and find the void
In the middle of the maelstrom
Quiet place of entropy
The calming peace of sanctum

Contaminated thoughts
Fueled by toxic dreams
The smile says tranquility
Inside the brain just screams

Those who whisper across the barrier crave innocent minds
never knowing who will answer, who the grooming finds
hands reaching into the membrane, groping, unknown
not caring of the aftermath and how it all unwinds

The monsters are known to us
never aliens from beyond
No demons sneaking over
or spirits to respond

The monsters will infect you
If you take the poison to heart
purge yourself, end the cycle
Don’t let the infection start

We are human, we are broken
We are used and then discarded
our scars left festering
since the wounds were imparted

They say a cheetah cannot change its spots
But it can say if you live or not
coming at you at the speed of hate

open mouth and shit falling out
Landing flat is what you’re about
And you’re taken when you hesitate

what I’ve seen would break a man
so I channel all the beasts I can
totems to protect my fractured mind

hearing pathetic woes
of the ones who walk on tippy toes
makes me want to slaughter to unwind

But I must be civilized
following these plans devised
to fold us into bleating herds of wool

sheared, naked, shivering
your own coat you’re delivering
while I refuse to play the fucking fool

Don’t follow me on this trip
blaze your own trail and mental slip
set the world on fire your own way

judge me and you judge yourself
your soul sold and there’s nothing left
you never want to come outside and play

This vehicle of flesh and bone is scorching down to ash
when it’s done don’t bury me, just throw me in the trash

I can run forever

One breath
The pain is gone
Doubt disappears
Nothing is wrong

I can run forever

To live
We first must die
One clean Stab
We open the eye

I can see forever

Alive
No rules apply
Fire-powered machine
And the world will fry

I will live forever

In time
My brothers arrive
Whispering to me
That the plan goes live

I have lost forever

Bleeding out
The lights turn off
Slipping to abyss
With Kalashnikov

I am the never

…

But I remember the shadow people
I remember the shadow people
I remember the shadow people
I remember the shadow people

I can live forever

They speak
Whisper to me
Another little touch
A can be

I will burn forever

Ride edges
They call to me
Planning my demise
I need to see

Into the forever

But I remember the shadow people
I remember the shadow people
I remember the shadow people
I remember the shadow people

Constant companions
Do they die when I sleep
Do they walk when awake
must maintain for their sake

I remember the shadow people
I remember the shadow people
I remember the shadow people
I remember the shadow people

To come to terms with life
Means you’ve identified your death
Means you’ve found meaning in your breath
But do not accept the sentence
Do not ever rest

You’ve identified the enemy
It will swallow you in entropy
It will sit waiting for the inevitable breakdown of sanity
But sanity is the enemy of your enemy in the light
And you have to be crazy to continue with this fight

The enemy of my Enemy
May not be a friend to me
May share the same enmity
That created my first enemy

the space, the void, craving alike
stretch to familiarity
to seek comfort in the finality that is blocked in purity of fear

the acid bath of oblivion
slaking of the thirst for desiccation
running away from the accumulation, the world’s faithful adhere

bare bone is far too much
the isolation of zero kelvin
a single hydrogen atom gaining consciousness in the nether

a silence profound
a hurricane’s eye reaching infinity
in a universe of released impossible weather

push the bubble out
create the negative space
that folds in on itself and the fracture lines feather

and break

into particles

that go unobserved as they fold into waves

breaking the event horizon of the nothing to bring me back to you